My father is a health nut and I'm not. Today he was eating his usual healthy stuff and I was going to go to McDonalds, he told me SJ, you are going to have to see a doctor going there. I told him his food is boring. We both agreed to disagree since there's nothing else to do.
Is it better to live a stale (in my opinion, and in terms of food) yet healthy life in terms of food, rather than to live a little shorter (they say vegetarians have longer life spans) and to enjoy life?
My choice is the second. I would rather live shorter and enjoy what I have rather than to live longer in a life that isn't mine. Life has no meaning to me if I can't define myself, express myself, sense for myself, and be myself. Other people may find meaning in conformity, hence the orthodox jews, and that's not me. My values are not their values.
Though I am secular, I picked up blogging about the orthodox community because I thought that all jews should be concerned about them due to their fascist asceticism and Manifest Destiny agenda towards the Jewish people as a whole (Stifling dissent, superstrict rules, kiruv towards other jews). (I meandered in and out of the orthodox community for a long while.)
There is also another reason why I picked up blogging, a clique of orthodox jews aka the anti - loshon hara crowd (not all Orthodox Jews of course, just a clique of them) nuked my reputation at school. As a result of both reasons, SJ came into being. This blog came into being as a blog that would be critical of the orthodox jews on levels that are theological, sociological, psychological, historical, etc.
Then eventually, through DK the www.kvetcher.net blogger, I found reference to an anti-semitic blog, where I found myself defending jews from conspiracy theories. This was odd to me because for a long time now I'm used to attacking orthodox Jews on my blog and other OTD blogs, and as a political conservative and I never thought I'd come to the defense of liberal jews. On that blog I came to speak for all Jews, which actually had me feeling awkward.
I know some of the things I wrote on this blog and other blogs were harsh, but I am one jew critical of jewish society. You want to know of other jews critical of jewish society? The writers of the Old Testament.
In any case, while all this is happening, I believe I have found certain answers that I have been looking for, with regard to the nature of God and God's relationship to man.
I am no longer an atheist or an agnostic. It would seem to me that atheism requires one to believe in an infinite universe since nothing can pop up from nothing; and it would seem to me that an infinite universe requires one to believe that new energy is perpetually being created and thus that infinite energy is perpetually being created in an infinite manner.
The problem is, I don't see how this is possible in a naturalistic universe for infinite energy to be propagating. Energy just poppin outta nowhere? Cooooooooome on. That's not naturalistic.
I do see how a universe would require a first cause who is himself unmoved in order to get the ball rolling, in the first place.
Thus, it would seem to me that atheism is the ultimate creation ex nihilo belief and that atheism is the ultimate supernatural world view (ironic), and that theism in fact is the quintessential naturalistic world view.
As you can see I have picked a different religious path for myself. I have even begun praying regularly, something I haven't done in years. These prayers aren't the songs I've sung as a younger individual, which admittedly even today I may be nostalgic from time to time for the tunes of the 2 different ways of singing Ashray. the tune of Alainu, to Al Kane Mikavah, etc. I just felt a strong need to go my own way, and with that being the case, SJ is going to be put to rest as while I am still secular (as I go out of my way to not be fundamentalist), and still Jewish by blood, I am something different than what I was before.
My faith requires me to be forgiving and to be zionist (God gave Israel to the jews.). I will have to be both but in the future it will be a more balanced zionism, because, let's face it, Israel does have its issues with the balance of religion and state and granted it's better than the rest of the Middle East in that regard.
In accordance with my recent new belief, I'm going to avoid attacking orthodox jews now on blogs from now on. God knows I wrote enough, and my Required Reading section is STAYING. I'm not sorry for anything I wrote. I'm not sorry for one little thing that I wrote.
As for me, I will continue to live life, to improve myself in various academic interests, and perhaps follow the news on what's going on in the Jewish world every now and then, but I wash my hands of being apart of the political discourse with regard to Jewish society. As soon as my debate with the anti-semitic guy is over, SJ will be gone. As for my new faith, I will remain an independent practitioner for the foreseeable future. Synagogue and I never mixed.
What is this new faith for me? Here's a hint in Isaiah 9:6 "For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace."
I'm pretty sure I found the path that is right for me. May you all find the path that is right for you.